Moving Towards Silence

I’ve always been the type to take on everyone else’s problems, put my head down, and just work harder. But I’m finally learning to say no. I’m finally choosing to fight the lies and believe that I’m valuable enough to have boundaries and take care of myself. It’s a huge work in progress and I have a very long way to go.

Anyone else working through this too?

I took the picture below when I was at my busiest. The yes-man (well, woman) in me couldn’t stand to let anyone down, so I was trying to do everything for everyone. One of my first steps in the right direction was when I started picking up my camera again. It was halloween and I was rushing from a long day at work to a halloween celebration that I didn’t have the energy for. But then I saw these deer.

Instead of choosing to continue my rush, I took a deep breath, stopped my car and grabbed my camera. I made it my goal to get at as close as possible, but to do that, I would have to slow down and become as peaceful as possible. I slowly entered their dinner time feast, and to my surprise, they trusted me enough to let me stand in the middle of all of them.

Time seemed to stop, everything was completely silent and peaceful. I was full of joy for the first time in a long time.

 

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